oh!sweetmisery
yes, it's all forced love & affection.
you don't want me, you just like the attention.
i'm not your toy.
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I am Selfish
Sunday, June 5, 2011 @ 6/05/2011 10:01:00 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.
John Wooden once said, "Happiness begins where selfishness ends."I admit, I am a very selfish person. I like to keep everything - things, everything, really, even people - to myself, and only to myself. Nobody's ever once complained about my being like this, though. But maybe that's because no one really knows for sure.. until now, obviously. I'm the kind of person who'll want to have something for a period of time, and then when I get bored, I would trade that something for something else in a heartbeat. Same goes with people, too. Sometimes I'd want to spend time with you, and only you.. only us, and no one else. I'd want your attention, all of it. But sometimes, I just won't give a fuck. But I guess that's just how things are in this sad, pathetic world we live in. People change and feelings fade. However, selfishness and this - whatever this is, I can't quite put my finger on it - definitely do not, and will never ever mix. Never. But right now, I am on the "wanting all of your attention" side. Right now, I am very shitpissed because we aren't talking. Right now, I just want to ignore everyone else. Right now, I just want to talk to you, and only you. Right now, I just want your attention.. Right now, I am not happy. So maybe I should just be a little less selfish and not want you, so I could be happy, don't you think? Maybe I should learn to share you, because let's face it.. You aren't even mine. Maybe I should just stop. Maybe. But I don't want to, because I want you. And maybe.. Just maybe, wanting you makes me happy. So fuck your stereotypical "happiness," I have my own. :3 Labels: #Drama, Life, N1, Summer 2011 |