oh!sweetmisery
yes, it's all forced love & affection.
you don't want me, you just like the attention.
i'm not your toy.
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Thursday, July 7, 2011 @ 7/07/2011 08:27:00 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.
I feel so lonely suddenly.You know? I have to end this. This downward spiral of negative thinking. I need to at least try to think positive for five minutes. But then again, I can't. It's just not me. So then I thought; What if maybe, just maybe I could be happy just a little? Labels: #Drama, #Personal, FUCK Friend fucking zone
Monday, June 13, 2011 @ 6/13/2011 08:14:00 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.
Sometimes, some people are just better off as friends. Nothing more, nothing less.We talked. I kind of missed you. Okay, I’m lying. I did miss you. But then, as we were talking, I realized we'll be better off as friends. Don’t get me wrong, though. I like you – a lot, actually. I like you so much it’s started to consume me. Gossip Girl quote, yes. This may sound cliché, but you make me feel better. I have absolutely no idea how. I guess it’s just the way we talk. It’s like we’ve know each other for years, you know? Kind of like how Dorothy and I talk. You amuse me… in a good way. You make me smile. You make me laugh. And I thank God that He let me meet someone like you. But then I thought, you’re such a good friend. Why ruin it with infatuation? It’s fucking stupid if you ask me. I’d rather have you as a (/another) best friend because that way, I wouldn’t lose you. Lose is a relative term, mind you. And I wouldn’t want to lose you. You’re the kind of person that I would want to stick around. So fuck it. Friend zone. Again. // So much for updating my blog everyday ‘til June 14th. Well, it is the 14th tomorrow, anyway. Haha, cheater! & this is my last post for Summer 2011! Hurrah. Labels: #Drama, #Personal, N1, Summer 2011 Recycle
Monday, June 6, 2011 @ 6/06/2011 10:14:00 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.
 Trolling Yellow Cab. :) Labels: #Picture, Summer 2011 I am Selfish
Sunday, June 5, 2011 @ 6/05/2011 10:01:00 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.
John Wooden once said, "Happiness begins where selfishness ends."I admit, I am a very selfish person. I like to keep everything - things, everything, really, even people - to myself, and only to myself. Nobody's ever once complained about my being like this, though. But maybe that's because no one really knows for sure.. until now, obviously. I'm the kind of person who'll want to have something for a period of time, and then when I get bored, I would trade that something for something else in a heartbeat. Same goes with people, too. Sometimes I'd want to spend time with you, and only you.. only us, and no one else. I'd want your attention, all of it. But sometimes, I just won't give a fuck. But I guess that's just how things are in this sad, pathetic world we live in. People change and feelings fade. However, selfishness and this - whatever this is, I can't quite put my finger on it - definitely do not, and will never ever mix. Never. But right now, I am on the "wanting all of your attention" side. Right now, I am very shitpissed because we aren't talking. Right now, I just want to ignore everyone else. Right now, I just want to talk to you, and only you. Right now, I just want your attention.. Right now, I am not happy. So maybe I should just be a little less selfish and not want you, so I could be happy, don't you think? Maybe I should learn to share you, because let's face it.. You aren't even mine. Maybe I should just stop. Maybe. But I don't want to, because I want you. And maybe.. Just maybe, wanting you makes me happy. So fuck your stereotypical "happiness," I have my own. :3 Labels: #Drama, Life, N1, Summer 2011 If you're missing, come on home
Wednesday, June 1, 2011 @ 6/01/2011 10:00:00 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.
I miss you. I really do. I don't even know why. The only thing I know is that I'm not supposed to. :(Oh, and I have this goal. I'll update my blog every single day until my June 14. :) I'm going to get my wires changed tomorrow. Holy shit. It's going to hurt like a bitch all over again. Wish me luck! Labels: #Drama, #Personal, N1, Summer 2011 |