oh!sweetmisery
yes, it's all forced love & affection.
you don't want me, you just like the attention.
i'm not your toy.
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Coup de théâtre
Wednesday, September 22, 2010 @ 9/22/2010 08:54:00 PM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.
I never thought it would come to this when I got myself into this mess last year. What an unexpected turn of events. So for the past few weeks I've been uninspired, alone, and tired. May pinagdadaanan ako. I'm faced with two choices, and I definitely do not have any clue whatsoever on what I should think, what I should do. Do I stay? Or do I quit? It seems easy, though it's not. If you can't take any more, quit. If you can, stay. Really, I'm at the brink of breaking down. How can you leave if your actions would affect not only yourself, but other people you care about as well - in a bad way? How can you leave if you know if you do, the pressure other people are in will just be kicked up a notch? Tell me, how? How can I leave if the consequence will be my friend crying to herself alone at night, thinking how they could finish this one thing without this one person? Of course after reading those things aforementioned the answer would be, without a doubt, YES. But, consider the things I feel. I can't take it anymore. I've had enough. I can't take the thought of pressure, or people around me who are pressured. I don't want to be involved in it anymore. I just want to end it. I really, really, really do. If I were as selfish as I claim to be, I'd leave without any hesitation. But, I'm not. Now, what the fuck do I do? Doesn't seem easy now, does it? Labels: #Personal |