oh!sweetmisery
yes, it's all forced love & affection.
you don't want me, you just like the attention.
i'm not your toy.
 |
What happened?
Tuesday, December 14, 2010 @ 12/14/2010 05:31:00 AM | 0 comment(s) | add a comment.
I’m forcing myself to forget something I want to remember. Do you know how hard that is? But it’s for the better, I guess. I don’t want to seem like a bother to you, so I’ll put up walls — show you I don’t care, show you it doesn’t hurt. But I can’t help thinking, when I cried that day, before I knew, you sent me a text and asked me what was wrong, it wasn’t you, though. That’s another issue. It made me happy, because I knew you cared. That I wasn’t just one of those people that you knew. That my feelings actually made a difference. Then what happened the day after? Did you send me the text while talking to her? The one you love? It bugged the hell out of me, really. Then it hit me. This was when I understood what it meant to want something I can never really have. |